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The Journey Called Cancer 3 – Mastectomy phase

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There’s absolutely nothing that can prepare you for facing cancer. I would usually take each day as it comes. I held on to my God so strongly and always believed, never wavering that I was not going to die. I tried to talk to a relative and she immediately started crying uncontrollably. I felt her pain but I really didn’t need a pity party, there was a battle to be fought and I wanted to fight it dried eyed.

Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t always strong, I would break down and cry. I loved crying in the shower it was invigorating, with water hitting the bald and getting all mixed up with tears… IT IS VERY OK TO CRY. I absolutely never cried and asked why me because if not me, it could be someone else and NOBODY should ever go through cancer. I cried because I had so many plans, I thought my life was at a standstill, not finished.

I had chemotherapy extensively before I was scheduled for a mastectomy. the goal was to shrink the tumor as much as possible as my care plan was to be minimally invasive as possible.

I could hardly sleep, I was up at 3 am. I had to be in the hospital at 6 am for my mastectomy surgery. I had been informed on the procedure and given a presurgery guide. I got ready and was praying and waiting for time to leave. At this point, the tension at home was so thick you could cut it with a knife. My ex outrightly said he couldn’t make it to the hospital with me, so I gathered my stuff and left with an uber. I was checked in at the hospital, signed my informed consent and just kept praying.

It was an extensive surgery and I woke up at about 5 pm. My entire breast tissue was removed and I had immediate reconstruction with implants. 12 lymph nodes were removed from my left arm and that started my journey with lymphodema (a story for another day). I was told it was successful but I felt like I fell off a tree and hit every single branch on my way down. My only visitor was my social worker. I spent two days in the hospital for observation before I was discharged. I had four drains hanging from my body, I had to struggle with pains and draining them. I had hardcore narcotics but it just wasn’t cutting it. ‘YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW STRONG YOU ARE UNTIL BEING STRONG IS THE ONLY OPTION YOU GOT’.

 

Journey called cancer-Double Mastectomy
2 days after the double mastectomy

 

I was battling with healing and the unease that existed around me. I really don’t feel entitled to anybody’s help but common! Would you help a stranger on the streets if the person was obviously struggling to reach for something and you know they are sick? I would say yes I can help a stranger so how much more someone under the same roof as me? I can only speak for myself though and today I can authoritatively say that one of the many lessons I got from cancer, is knowing people who truly care about me.

 

Breast cancer and mastectomy

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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20 thoughts on “The Journey Called Cancer 3 – Mastectomy phase

  1. Dear,
    God is your strength. We will continue to pray for you. Love your courage . Will like to follow your blog.

  2. Boy oh boy!!! I like the line about courage. Many a time people will tell you, you are so courageous but then you look at them and smile and ask them, If i chose not to have courage what other option did i have?. Thanks for sharing your story of extreme courage, you are a trooper because many people also choose to give up and die but you didn’t. You are still fighting tooth and nail. Whenever it ends, its God plan but you have done your part deligently. So, you are a hero of some sorts in my books. May God heal your scars both in and out. We love you Sam😘.

  3. Am so happy for u Esama…… Well u said no tears thank God u are seeing me now
    U are really an inspiration

  4. When I’m speechless, I just hug. So I’m sending you virtual hugs right now. You’re a heroine

  5. Am inspired. You are courageous. Your piece is encouraging me to take decisions that ordinarily fear of the unknown would not allow me. Most of all still praying for you. You are right. You would know how strong you are until being strong is the only available option.

    1. I’m glad I can inspire you. Fear is a normal human emotion but we shouldn’t allow it dictate our lives. I would advice you to consider the pros and cons of your situation and make a concrete decision devoid of fear. Wish you luck dear.

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