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The journey called cancer 2

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I could literally hear my heart beat as I was advised on my care plan. I was to start chemotherapy. A port was going to be placed on my chest for ease of administration but I practically begged to have it sooner because I wanted to start the treatment ASAP.

I had my first chemotherapy intravenously and it infiltrated into my tissue, which has left me with a scar on my hand that I wear with pride. I love all my scars because it shows my strength. ( I have been asked only 20 times if I am an IV drug addict😂😂 because of the scar on my arm but nah drugs ain’t my thing, I got enough of other vices.)

 

Afterward, my port was placed on my chest and I got my shots from my chest.

Then the effects of chemotherapy started. Oh dear, I thought I was ready but I wasn’t! My throat was practically burnt from the inside, so burnt you could see my veins were noticeably inflamed from outside. This also meant I couldn’t eat. Honestly, I love food so much. It was a psychological torture for me. I wasn’t going to give up though. I formed a habit of going to the internet to look at pictures of food… For some reason that worked for me. ( I still do it to date😂 old habits die hard right?)

Then my hair! My hair! Oh, Lawd! It started falling off in little bits and I thought I could manage it. I started wearing wigs. Then I woke up one morning and noticed a large chunk of hair on my pillow😭.

I was very emotional about this addition to my woes. Well, I decided to shave it all off. I needed motivation, so I called my childhood friend on facetime and she talked me all through shaving my hair. It was really consoling hearing her say I looked good bald. It uplifted my spirit and boosted my ego. Never underestimate the goodness of kind words.

The relationship at home had gone from manageable to bad at this point. Insults were directed to me at will like I chose to have cancer. Anyway, I made a conscious effect not to lose focus and concentrate on my treatment. I was home all bald and my now ex-husband got back from his job. His words were ”you look like an alien, you scare me…you should have some scarf on.” Talk about my ego plummeting? It dropped to zero. ( I honestly didn’t want to look like a character out of E.T- the Extra-Terrestrial)

 

Breast cancer- BAld head after chemo
Bald head after Chemo

 

My skin texture went from beautiful to horrible. I couldn’t hide my hands and nails( how I wish it was winter so I could wear gloves.) I lost my toenails. My Palm was darkened..you may wonder why I would be so consumed in my physical appearance when I had cancer cells trying to grow in me? I speak from my experience that depression is spiraling. You just keep deteriorating constantly.

Breast cancer; effect of chemo
Before and after chemo

I can’t put into words the thoughts I had at the time. I didn’t know what to worry about at this point… My life and health? The fact I couldn’t eat? My looks? My loss of energy? I fought with so many emotions. My friends were in Nigeria and London at the time, people who cared about me were not near. I didn’t have physical support but I’m forever indebted to my friends and brothers who called me every day.

It was chemotherapy for every three weeks until I was scheduled for a bilateral mastectomy.

Stay with me as I chronicle my experiences and feel free to share stories of you or your loved ones.

 

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28 thoughts on “The journey called cancer 2

  1. You such a strong person. Never knew you went all through this ordeal. Am glad you pulled through. As I read your journey tears keep dropping.

  2. I’m speechless never knew you went through this. You have always been a strong babe, noting pulls you down cos u always fight through it all. God is above all things and he is always there by your side

  3. Your strength inspires me daily. God has got your back and you can only get better.

  4. Wow!!! I’ve never seen u without a smile .. a sign of great strength .. with all u were dealing with? Am so happy you are fine and such an inspiration.. 😘

    1. My smile confuses the devil….cancer has got nothing on me. Thank you for caring for me through it all.

  5. You’re such an inspiration, keep winning gurl, cancer’s got no hold on you.

  6. Will I say it is tears, or the fact that this is happening to my friend? May God arise on your behalf, Sammy!

  7. We are all fighters, fighting one thing or the other. Yours could be cancer but bare in mind that you will overcome darling. You are strong, you are a super woman. May God continue to keep you

  8. wow!!! often times we have no idea of what our friends are going through ..you had crossed my mind a couple of times, I was glad to see you back on Facebook but knew absolutely nothing of the ordeal. The battle is won!

  9. Thank you… God has been faithful. The importance of communication amongst friends can’t be overemphasized… let’s keep in touch😘

  10. I’m happy for you my super sis l like your courage may God continue to keep you strong in Jesus name Amen

  11. Sammie, all I see right now, is how bright your present day life & your future is, how much of God’s outstretched arm you now are to your world;being a huge source of inspiration. I’m eternally grateful to God for you. Samie, you are so strong! You’ve been through all this and have come out purified like Gold. Oh! I’m so proud of you. Love you so much Dear. You are blessed of God.

  12. Wow, inner strength is always key. You’ve fought a good fight. This will surely inspire someone out there going through same phase that all hope isn’t lost. God always takes care of his own.

  13. You are surely a fighter. Many would give up…but you stayed positive. I’m blessed with this post

  14. You have always been so strong on the inside. I wish I had half your strength. May God perfect your healing

  15. Okay…. So I only just scrolled through, I need to sit down and digest every single word I’m going to read. I’m wowed! Wowed at how beautiful this blog is… The colours….. 😍😍😍…. and hey you #kickedcancer yeah you kicked the s#!+ outta cancer’s arse😁…. I pray for an absolute/complete healing for you… #Samrocks.

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